Wide Second, Releve, and Plie

It rained this morning and I am not hardcore enough to run in the rain. Well, perhaps a warm summer rain, but not a cold fall winter rain. So, I went back to the barre method class tonight near Logan Circle.
I thought I didn't like it because it couldn't measure up to Lithe. Then, I thought I didn't like it because there was no cardio. But, tonight, I realized why I don't like.

Everyone there is super skinny. Like ballet dancer skinny. Like a student in the class after mine was in a leotard with tights. Like my body can never look like anyone in the class. And, the mirrors, oh my gosh, they seem magnify every single perceived flaw. So, I send the hour of class looking at every fold and curve with a judgmental eye.

I'm torn because I like the leg workout of the class at the barre. The location is between the office and my house. And, I can make myself go. But, I usually feel bad during and after class. I can't hold my led up as high. I can't tuck as severely. I can't go as wide second or a high on releve. It's my anatomy. There are just some things my body can't go.

What I do to build strength, tone muscles, and burn calories is to push my body while respecting my anatomy. That is why I was able to work out daily for nine months at an intense clip without any injuries. That is pretty badass. And, I never felt bad about my body, and that was when I HATED my body. I always felt good working out.

So, I am torn. DC does not have excellent work out facilities. It has trendy "to be seen at" gyms, dirty gyms,and lots of yoga, or super expense private pilates classes. I need a daily group workout place. Well, I know what I need, but its not here.

In the meantime, do I stick with barre? Or, drop it so I feel okay about myself?